I hate it when I leave my laundry till Sunday night...at 11pm. Thats kindof sucks. On that note I must go and start my laundry and then recommence this blog....c u in 5....
so i just put my load of laundry in and i think i may have left it too late...oh well.
So tonight I had the oh so humiliating experience of bursting into tears while leading worship. No fun....no not at all. I don't think too many people would have noticed (at least I hope) but it was humiliating all the same. I had some very sweet people tell me after that it did them good to see someone cry in front of them...I have a funny feeling they were just trying to be nice - but I appreciated it all the same. I knew it would probably happen eventually as I am not someone who can easily stop it when it's trying to come....but I felt extra exposed and vulnerable tonight...not very comfortable. I think what God is trying to show me through the bizarre experience of worhsip - is that it is very rarely supposed to be or feel comfortable. Anywayz - I think maybe it was Todd speakign hebrew that started it....for some reason that always gets me. oh - One girl told me that she hears a "longing" in my voice and that it "really hit the spot". I liked that one alot. Music as food! Anyway - all in all a bit of an exhausting evening. But it's all good. what EV er.
On another note...I keep having these amazing conversations with Sharon Coward. When i talk to her it is very eerie - almost like I'm talkign to another version of me. Anywayz - our conversation tonight was a big old encouragement after what seemed to be a very long and lonely week....and we seem to be going through very similar life situaitons. That fact alone is very encourageing. It's so weird that we've met up again after so many years...so great!
This weekend I actually had Friday Saturday AND Sunday off - which is so wierd - but so good. I spent the weekend pretty much alone - other than having dinner with April and Having lunch with Lisa on Friday. April and Shelley went ot Ins and Mari's wedding on Saturday...so I had the day to myself....and it was good - i spent most of it in High park. At one point I think I can say I was actually lost. It was rather amusing. I was listened to Tom Petty which was really funny too as it's been so many years. Anyway it was good to be around trees...and just trees...and no billboards...and very few people.
It seems I have just talke alot of nothing tonight. Ah well. OH - Jen Shank and Lief are engaged...so happy for them. But it hit a little close to home tonight....part of me was a bit sad too. Wondering how liong I'll be "carrying the freakin torch" so to speak.
Must go. Over and Out